i slept at my house for the first time in about 5 months last niteee...
it was really refreshing and felt really good.
and thats because i was just asleep on one of my couches.
it was probably the warmth and the christmas tree shining on my face while i was asleep.

yesterday i went to the doctorr..
they told me i had walking pneumonia,
and couldn't work for the rest of the weekendd.
soo, i have today and tomorrow off :]
i'm not horribleee,
it just feels like my breath is shortened and there is a little pressure in my chest, and a pretty bad cough.
plus im just a little pale.

buttt, definitely i want to do something tonite..
drink a few beers, maybe mixxx.

christmas time is just plain amazing
there should be no time for any shitty moods,
only love and friendship.

i am genuinely happy right now.

i've been too selfish lately. :/

Current Mood: apathetic

i've come to realize a lot of things about myself lately.
i know i don't need anyone.

but i do wanttt.

i see the way things are nowww.
they're not great.
but complaining doesn't help.
it feels a little like something is missing.
maybe.

i'm just trying to get by.
i think everyone is.
in the most moral way.
at least according to my morals.
moving forward is the only thing to do.

it just helps a bit when you have someone there for you.
when there aren't any worries about burdening.
just someone you can really tell what is on your mind.

i am beginning to see.
life is okayy.
really, it is. :]

Current Mood: complacent

i'm alive and well..

school needs to start.
i need to move in to my apartment alreadyy.

but times been flying by nonetheless. :)

only the mornings are kinda toughh :/
i wake up with these horrible stomach aches that have lasted about a month and a half now.

i should probably go see someone about thatt.
(but since theyre only in the morning i forget about it later on in the dayyy) :]

anyhowww,

this semester i need to keep from getting in a rut..
i seem to find myself in those frequently,
and for meee they are very hard to get out off..

reasonnn:
i'm a lazyyyy stubbornn asss :]

as long as we keep from those and stay active..
and by that i mean runnn, at least twice a week, to shoot for the bare minimummm.

its always hard ending these things..
i get the impulse that it has to be with some kind of limerick, or something wiseeee..
but i'm thinkinggg, pretty harddd..

and nothings comingg..

sooooo,

bye.
reuben.

:]

we are disturbed not by things, but by the views which we take of things.
when therefore we are hindered, or disturbed, or grieved lets us never impute it to others,
but to ourselves; that is to our own views.
it is the action of an unistructed person to blame others for his own misfortunes;
of one entering upon instruction, to blame himself;
and of one perfectly instructed to blame neither others nor himself.

-Epictetus

the days are getting harder to get through..
i don't know if i should give up.

it doesn't feel right to let go.
:/

i should get a large book of quotess..
they seem to be the only thing getting me by lately..

it's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.

it's only after you've lost everything that you can do anything.

why is it that my only sense of emotion is through music.
if my world was constantly revolved in music,
i would be a more emotional person, maybe.

doors would open.
i could open up to people, maybe.
can't definitely say for sure.

i might find some other thing to stray me away.

oh well.

i think too much about thinking.
i worry too much about worrying.

my mind takes over my entire body sometimes.
doesn't make me feel very good most times.

Current Music: dahlback.